Almost Thirteen

Almost thirteen. Thirteen years of freedom from active addiction. It seems like a dream at times and sometimes it seems as if it has been a whirlwind of sadness and pain. Recovery is a beautiful process of learning how to accept life for what it is and not numb out the negative aspects. But that also means you have to process and move through all the pain and suffering of life on life's terms. There are no reprieves from life when you put down the substances that block it all out for you. You just have to learn to be...

Approaching almost thirteen years free from addiction marks a profound journey, one characterized by both moments of triumph and periods of struggle. It's not merely about abstaining from substances; it's a holistic process of reclaiming control over one's life and learning to navigate the complexities of existence with clarity and purpose.

In this journey of recovery, there's a delicate balance between acknowledging the beauty of newfound freedom and confronting the reality of past pain and suffering. It's a journey of self-discovery, of peeling back the layers of addiction to reveal the essence of one's true self.

Recovery teaches invaluable lessons about acceptance—acceptance of life in its entirety, with all its imperfections and uncertainties. It's about learning to embrace both the light and the shadow, to find meaning and purpose even in the midst of adversity.

But this journey isn't without its challenges. Without the numbing effects of substances, one must confront the full spectrum of human emotions—the joy, the sorrow, the fear, and the longing. It requires a willingness to sit with discomfort, to face difficult truths, and to cultivate resilience in the face of suffering.

Yet, within this vulnerability lies an inherent strength—a strength born from the courage to confront one's demons head-on, to acknowledge past mistakes, and to embrace the possibility of a brighter future. It's a strength that grows with each passing day, with each obstacle overcome, and with each new insight gained along the way.

As I approach this milestone, I must remember to honor the journey—the highs and the lows, the victories and the setbacks. Each step forward is a testament to my resilience, courage, and unwavering commitment to living life on my own terms. As I continue on this path of recovery, may I find solace in the knowledge that I am never alone—that there is a community of kindred spirits walking beside me, offering support, understanding, and encouragement every step of the way.

Dr. Sheena Falter

AKA Professor

L & R